I’m not going to comment about how long it’s been since I’ve last posted because everyone does that (event though I want to)…
I’ve spent some time recently reading old posts and entries and it’s so nice to look back at different phases of my life and how I felt or what I was experiencing. Doing such creates a sense of thankfulness in my heart. I just don’t deserve what I have. What He has given me, and how He continues to pursue me.
A common theme I see is that Christ has carried me. He has carried me since the moment He called me, and as I reflect, there’s just NO WAY I could have survived without Him. He is good in where He has brought me and to where He is leading me. “All I have needed, Your hand has provided. Great is Your faithfulness, Lord, unto me.”
I am about to embark on yet another life transition. After May 18, 2012, I will say, “I’ve been a student for 20 years, and I’m finally done.” And then I move on to start working as a social worker. Just the whole concept of having a 40+ hour/week job, a salary, and full-adult responsibility…without the excuse of “oh, I’m a student” or “I’m still learning, I’m an intern.” Bizarre.
A new element I’ve invested in is RUNNING. Yes, you read this correctly. I am an amateur runner 🙂
My first race is Nov. 19…the LSU BCM’s Run for the Nations 5k. I did a practice 5k yesterday and was happy that I have developed the endurance to run 3.1 miles.
Every time I run (this is not an exaggeration, literally, EVERY TIME) I run, I think about Paul’s illustration of the Christ-follower running towards the prize…finishing the race. Sometimes when I run, I run out of enjoyment. And that is good and necessary at times, BUT if I simply plateau, then I will never get better or reach a higher goal. When I want to get better and increase my endurance, I HAVE TO PUSH MYSELF. Period.
When I want to stop at 2.5 miles, I tell myself, “No, Kayla. You HAVE to keep going. You don’t have a choice. And if you stop now, you’ll HATE yourself for it either later on today or tomorrow.” And I have experienced both…settling for the plateau and pushing myself. It’s difficult, and in the moment, I question myself it it’s really worth that much…
What incredible insight into my spiritual race?!?!
How many times have I settled into a comfortable plateau in my relationship and obedience with Christ? And I KNOW the answers…and I’ve experienced both facets of this in my relationship with Christ. If I am to grow in Christ, LOVE Him more and more with EACH day, REACH more people with His Gospel, then I have no choice. I MUST push myself.
But different from a runner training for marathons, when followers of Christ settle, or fail, or SIN, His grace is there to convict, forgive, heal, pick us up, and push us forward again. So, if you’re on a plateau, have fallen, or just quit running altogether, get up. He has everything you need to keep going and to get better…after all, it is He who changes us and makes us able to run. Thank you, Christ.
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. (2 Corinthians 12:9 ESV)
and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith… (Hebrews 12:1-2 ESV)
Not only that, but we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us. (Romans 5:3-5 ESV)